Golden age

Writing at least two blogs a month has become a routine, I am slowly running out of thoughts because my life is also slowly turning out to be a routine now. Like every other young Indian who are in their quarter life crisis (in their 20’s) I go to work, slog the whole day, and talk to different people, come back home and sleep. Hardly do I get time to spend with family and friends. There are two different nouns trying to rule me day and night “emotions” and “duties”, it’s not only for me I am sure all of us who are in our golden age of twenties face the same kind of turmoil. Emotion as in paying right amount of attention to our loved ones, and duties as in spending the right amount of time in our work. There are two different worlds’ between our emotions and duties and it is we who have to bridge these worlds so that we feel connected to our real world. As I said this is a golden age for us because we start facing the real world only at this age, but at the same time we are also stuck between our emotions and duties. For most of you or at least all of us have this huge goals set in life which gives us rattle snakes in mind when we think about it, and on the other side this huge amount of hormonal stimuli which gives us butterflies in stomach. We try so hard to perfect both the duties and stimuli that at sometimes we end up getting screwed by our bosses on one side and our paramour on the other end. Apparently nothing much can be done about it, All we can do is try to have a balance of both these world’s and enjoy everything that’s going on because everything has an end and I’m sure our golden age will also end. So, let’s enjoy through all the confusions and mess in our life before this golden age turns into history. 

CHAMELEON

                                                        CHAMELEON

I have written enough about life, the way it is, the way it should be, and people who make my world, sadly every time I write a blog I realize I write so deep. Wonder why, when I talk to people outside I’m so hyper-active, but when I talk to myself by way of writing blogs I talk emotional and philosophical. People say I have a positive energy wonder why I don’t give that energy to myself. And when I say this my sole is confused about who I am. Am I really the hyperactive, retarded girl as I portray myself to this outside world or am I the most serious and philosophically matured lady, who thinks so much about my little known future. Why is it that I have two different characters within myself? Or is it just that certain behavior over rides the other at certain places and at certain times. If so why is it that I’m not hyper at places where I am generally quiet, and quiet at places generally I’m hyper? What inhibits me from being the same everywhere? Is it the people around me?

So many questions keep going on in my mind and after asking so many questions I’m still confused don’t know when I will find answers to these questions. Weird of all I wonder if everybody has such things going on in their minds. Wonder if everybody has such split personalities In them and when I say this I start feeling like a woman with super powers, having capability of a chameleon changing characters at different places. Apparently this sounds evil because a chameleon is always portrayed that way. But, yet I know I’m not as evil as chameleon for, after all I change characters just to protect myself from the different creatures of God around me. Well that way even a chameleon does the same, protects itself from different creatures around it, why is it that a chameleon is branded a cheat. Does that mean when we protect ourselves we are cheats in this world? I think I should stop this blog with this and give time for you people to think about it. Meanwhile I will think about my next topic to pen

photo courtesy:- Pradeep Kumar(Brother)