Lifetime refuge

Well, this picture says it all. The smile and happiness that I have since I found refuge in your heart. 60 days of having you by my side is a whole lot to talk about my man. All have wondered why no blog for such a long time and to write about someone this important and special I needed my time. This being the first blog I'm writing as Mrs. Shivaish, I wanted it to be about the man who was born to be my all. Leaving the people who gave you Birth, leaving the little boy who helped you grow alongside him, leaving the comfort zone of house, leaving the cupboards which carried your dresses,leaving the mirror which brought beauty in you all these years, leaving the television and couch which helped you run your time, leaving the kitchen which helped you learn cooking, leaving the scooty that made flying to places easy, leaving the roads that meant to be yours which you travelled day and night, thus goes the list of things that has been left, in these two months. But when I sit back and think I haven't left anything that I had,  infact God has given me all the things that I thought I left in one single bundle called husband. Where there was a father who guided me, I see this man now guiding me for my betterment, where there was a mother with whom I can share my deepest secrets, I see this man now with whom I talk anything and everything that is happening in my life. Where there was a sibling with whom I used to fight and pull pranks I have this man with whom I can still pull pranks and play with. Where I had the mirror which reflected me and helped me groom I have this man who reflects me and make me look cuter every passing day.  Where I had my television and couch which helped me pass time, I have this man who accompanies me in weirdest hours of a day(early morning or midnight) listening to my tynee tiny stories. Where I had my kitchen which developed my culinary skills, I see this man still helping me develop my culinary skills by tasting what little I make. Where I had my scooty which helped me fly places, I have this man's shoulder where I jus have to hold on and close my eyes and I can reach my destination in no time. Where I had my roads which was always waiting for me to travel, I see this man always waiting to be by myside. I wonder how one single man can adopt to be so many avatars of my life. But yes this man always does it with such an ease and with that smile in his face, which makes me grow crazy for him every single minute. Only one thing which I regret is the fact that I got to see my man after 25 years of my life, wish we could have met the day we were born so we would have had more to share in life, but nevertheless we still have lot of memories to make together as shivaish.happppyyyyy two months of togetherness sweeeeetoss.

Nlp: a journey that teaches life

Having very little idea on what nlp is but just knowing that I want a change in career, a career that would give me self satisfaction and at the same time bring about smile and happiness not just in me but the people around me, I entered the class. Being the youngest in the room sitting next to managers and business men hardly did I have hopes of having good learning time inside the class. My brain was playing hide and seek with my heart. Heart wanting to indulge in this new journey and brain wanting to run out and get back to comfort zone. Indeed in a matter of five minutes my heart won, when the moment I involuntary got up and gave feedback after tulsi's speech and my answers were not judged as right or wrong  like in other classsrooms. Instead my answers and feedbacks were welcomed. I knew there was full of positive energy inside the room which had the power to throw away the negativity in us and feel the importance of every little thing around us. "let go" the first expirement we did, I was wondering why would i have to share my drawbacks with people I have hardly known but in end of the session I realised I wasn't sharing my fears with the person sitting in front of me, I was sharing my darkest fears within myself, I spoke to my heart on my darkest fears which I generally avoid doing. The moment I shared my darkest secrets with my heart I cried, I cried felt lighter like as though some magic happened and the fear that I was carrying all these years like burden flew out of my body. From that instance I have started giving a new meaning to my life and most of all started appreciating what I have as a gift. Every exercise I did was so intense and the more I kept talking about what I want out of my life the more closer I was drawn towards my goals. The best of all, I did not have anyone around me who would laugh about my dreams like the outside world did, which helped me talk about my dreams freely like a free bird chirping it's song without the fear of being laughed and ridiculed at.

Modelling

'modelling' other people, putting ourselves in others shoes is something we hardly do, we critisise others on their life, but if we learn to model we will realise that all of us are carrying our own treasure and we will start respecting not only our gift but also what others treasure. Slowly over the course of journey I realised there are no lessons to be learnt for a career change, but there are lessons that have to be learnt to modify the way we live life which in itself will bring change not just in our carrier but in life in its whole.

Every step we take in life is a stepping stone to rebuild ourselves and nlp was not just one stepping stone but a big leap which has helped me enjoy the gifts that God has bestowed on me I have started holding on to these gifts and have become busy collecting the gifts that are on my way and looking forward for the gifts that are yet to come in this journey called life