My Eternal Bond

 The first time this piece of metal touched my finger I had an adrenaline rush, it felt heavier than it looked, for I knew that it's not just a piece of metal, but the symbol of love of the man who has accepted to be there by myside through thick and thin. From that moment I decided I would never shed the first form of his love from my hands ever, and I would carry it always just like how I carry his love in my heart. When one fine day I realised the ring was missing in my hands, I felt it deep down in me, I cursed myself for not even noticing it when it drifted down my fingers. But I knew it would come in search of me and this keepsake would not leave my fingers easily, today morning when the sight of the ring reached my eyes I had small drops of tears. I never went in search of it physically but my subconscious search for it helped me reach it.

When I write this I'm reminded of Paulo coelho's words: "when you want something the whole world conspires in helping you achieve it'

The Season of Judgment

It's that time of the year when everyone of us will be judged for the work that we have been doing in the last one year. Be it an LKG kid or the CEO of a multinational company, this is the month when our work is weighed and judged and we are scaled by our performances. It is absolutely fine if you feel your misjudged by someone. It is ok for an LKG kid if he/she cannot recite a rhyme at the end of the academic year, and it is equally fine if a manager doesn't meet few of his goals and objectives in  a year. If you fail miserably this year it doesn’t mean you have failed your life. Every one of us were born to fulfill higher objectives by God, than what your mark sheets or appraisals at work talk about. The purpose in life is to live true to yourself and to the work that you are destined to do everything else will fall in place, as the saying goes "if you want something the world conspires in helping you achieve it". Do not base your life's objectives with that of the work or school, flunking in a year or being chucked out of a company is not the end of life. In fact such failures give you better experiences and opportunities for you to learn from every miserable decisions that led to such failures. To every little kid who has faced annual exams for the first time, to every anxious adolescent who has faced your board's for the first time, to every fellow companion who are facing appraisals at work, never let anyone judge you in life, always YOU be your own manager and keep appraising you for a better YOU.

Howling success

The picture says it all!! The colours, my little rabbit has brought into my life!!
Ten months of anxiety and nine hours of labor!! You made me unconcious with your little cry!! That's all I knew when I was in ICU!!
First month I never knew how to carry you!!
Second month I dint know how to feed you!!
Third month I still had difficulty in feeding you, but you somehow managed to adjust with this new lady and you started recoginizing I was your mom!!
Fourth month you took me by surprise when you rolled over for the first time!! By now you also knew how to smile.
Fifth month sleepless nights began to dawn, late night feedings made our bond strong!!
Sixth month you learnt to crawl and for your  half birthday you were dressed like a doll!!
Seventh month was the first time you ate food and you were a pro at it, "Go bananas" was an idiom that you took too seriously!!
Eight month you first hit the sea to see sunset and thus you became a part of our regular outings!!
Nine months you managed to stand holding on to me and to hear you utter "Amma" was a bliss!!
Ten months you started to own your first set of friends and you also learnt how to make a mess with your toys!!
Eleven months was the hardest phase for me to leave you and join work, but you so confidently said bye and assured me our bonding and love will only grow stronger no matter what this world throws upon us!!
One year I have unlearnt what this adulthood has thaught me and from your childish charm I have learnt to smile and be happy and to keep learning from every small thing in this world!!

Eternal bonding

Marriage is not just uniting two people for the benefits that the society acquires, but it is an amalgamation of two beautiful families that become one. It's not two people living happily ever after but everybody who has been a part of these two people's life also find new fruits in thier relationship. It's not just a seed sprouting into a plant but two big banyan trees trying to form a common root and thus forming a new tree. Three years into this journey called marriage I did discover beautiful relationships in the name of in- laws, sister in a sister-in-law, brother in a brother-in-law, and beautiful budding flowers who readily accepted me into thier family tree. But of all, this journey has made me feel motherhood a blissful feel forever in my life. If someone asks should you keep celebrating anniversary every year, I would say not every year, but every second that I live I will cherish every little thing that this marriage of two hearts has given me.

Smile

And for everything that this world wants to give you, always give back a smile. Even at an age when the world's most expensive cosmetics cannot give you beauty it's this smile, that brings out the beauty of your heart. It could be your boss who is driving your brain crazy at work, nevermind just give back a smile, because your heart deserves a smile through this hardship. It could be a relationship that is all of a sudden tumbling down the castle, nevermind just give back a smile your heart deserves it. It could be your own children who have outgrown your comfortable shoulder and has no time for you, nevermind just sit back and have a smile because your heart deserves it. It could be your most trustworthy friend who is just a mere observer of you on your social sites now, nevermind just give back a smile because your heart deserves it. It could be your better half in life who has all of a sudden forgotten the beauty in you as days pass by, nevermind just sit back and put up a smile because your heart deserves it. It could be that you are just one mark short  of being a state topper, nevermind just put up a smile for all the hard work that your heart has gone through. It could be your newborrn toddler who is making you sleep deprived, just put up a smile because your heart deserves it, after all that you went through to bring another small version of you into this beautiful space called world. There could be umpteen number of such reasons for you to feel that life is giving you the worst of it's tastes. yes I am sure everyone of us have crossed through these phases and will surely cross these phases in future, if at all you do so just remember to put up a genuine smile in your face, because it tells your heart that it is stronger than it thinks and whatever it is going through right now is only a phase in life, a lesson to be learnt. And remember a strong heart will always be reflected through the smile that you are going to show to the world. Never let anyone or any situation to steel your smile.

மலரின் மடல்

இதழானது, என் குழந்தையடி நீ என கூறியபோது, 
உன்னை  ஒரு தாயாகவே  உணர்ந்தேன் !!
அவ்விதழானது,  என் உயிர் மூச்சடி நீ என கூறியபோது,
உன்னை என் உயிரினும் மேலாய்  நினைத்தேன்  !!
ஒரு கடுகளவும்  எண்ணியதில்லை,
கூறிய அவ்விதழ்கள்  மற்றொரு  மலரை 
நாடுமென!!
ஐயகோ!!!  துடி  துடித்தேன்!!
நாடிய  இதழ்களுக்கு நிநெய்ஊட்றுகிறேண் !!
இதழே!!  இதழே!!
நீ இந்த உளகில் எத்தணை மலரை நாடிணாலும்!!
உனக்கான மலர் நான்தானே !!
ஏழு பிறவி எடுப்பினும் , வாடாமல் காத்திருப்பேன்!!
உன்னை நான் மட்டும் முழுமையாய்
அடைய காத்திருப்பேன்!!